Soliloquy of Hozhó

I challenge you to find new ways to describe my essence because

I’m beyond beautiful…

I am the strength of a mother who pushed hard to bring her daughter into this world when her heart stopped.

I am more than incredible…

As I am the resilience of my great-great-great grandmother who escaped from Hweełdí to return to Diné Bikeyáh.

 

My insight runs deep, as my heart beats to the rhythm of prayers sung by the medicine women in my life.

My light is the fire in the home, it’s omnipresent, wrapping itself around you until the chill dissipates.

I am light.

I am love.

Together this force is strong.

My force is strong and I unapologetically stand in its power throughout the day and long into the night.

I won’t submit to anything, I lived that way before and that kind of tiny life hurts.

I’m freer

Like this

I honor myself in this life by being the woman I’m meant to be.

I will grow. I will morph into my next form. I will become more woman.

 

Understand, I am always becoming.

Not because I’m not enough but because I am everything.

 

I am the trees, the sun, the flowers, the earth under your feet

I am the vivacity of flowing water as it caresses the embankment

 

I am a baby’s laugh, the First Laugh. Because this laugh reminds us we are meant for this earth

I am meant for this earth. Just like this laugh, I resonate in your soul

Reverberate and shake your being awake

 

I share this not as an excuse or warning but as a promise

I am molded in the image of Changing Woman and my power is something I share, flaunt and protect. It radiates from me slowly burning away the darkness and exposing love. This prismatic energy will make you want to love me more. I know this because I love me more with each step and effort to be more free, to be more me.

I constantly woo myself

My being is an endless love song, a soliloquy of Hozhó, sung like a prayer in a Hogan offering thanks and humbly requesting more blessings so this light can

Continue to shine

Continue to exude

Continue to radiate

 

Understand, I am always becoming.

Not because I’m not enough but because I am everything

 

Published by Jaclyn Roessel

Jaclyn Roessel was born and raised on the Navajo Nation. She is founder of the blog Grownup Navajo. She co-founded the blog Presence 4.0, a Native style blog. She also co-founded the multi-media project schmooze: lady connected. Owner of the card company the Naaltsoos Project, Roessel is a philanthropist, American Indian advocate and museum professional.

15 thoughts on “Soliloquy of Hozhó

  1. It is important to have pride in who you are. I wish more young people could view their history, culture and family through the same window to see how special they are. Your words, once again, cut through the fog of victimization and hopelessness. Thank you for sharing.

  2. Understand, I am always becoming.
    Not because I’m not enough but because I am everything.

    This entire piece is incredibly powerful – I have not read anything quite like this “manifesto” – or perhaps declaration of “self” in love – it is such an amazing tribute – honoring past, present and future – and the line =

    Not because I’m not enough but because I am everything – this is such an understanding perspective – “old soul wise” – and it is empowering.

    Beautiful!

      1. I’m 1/2 Ojibwa. I hold tightly to the old ways. My Ojibwa Grandmother raised me up to believe in freedom and open land. I enjoyed your words.

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